Obstacles

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I like to think of myself as an optimist. I try to accept the hurdles and get over them. I’m always pushing through things, smiling, joking and moving on. This week, I can’t seem to do that, well if I’m honest, I’m doing that on the outside, but on the inside, I’m sad. I feel defeated. I’ve been pushing through at the gym, no matter what I kept going. I pulled a muscle in my back and had to stop going to the gym back in May 2022. I did physical therapy for a month. Then I was back slowly regaining strength. Then in August I started getting dizzy. It took me about 9 months and so many doctors to figure out why I was getting dizzy in the middle of workouts that I had done before with no issues. I have spoken about this period before. I never talked about it in depth because I like to focus on the positive, which is good but sometimes we need to talk about the negative. Sometimes when we hear about someone else struggles, we can relate and it makes us feel normal. I have been seeing so many amazing women on social media who at the ages of 50, 60 and even 70 start their fitness journey, they lose weight, gain strength and it is amazing and inspiring! Yet, at the same time, it can make you feel weak, and unmotivated. How come it seems so easy for all these people, yet it’s so hard for me? How come I have all these hurdles I need to get over while they are slow and steady gaining strength while making it look so easy. While I know their journeys haven’t been easy, I think sometime we need to see that. So here I am telling you it isn’t that easy, we will all have obstacles in our lives that we need to overcome. I went to my orthopedic doctor last Sunday because I had pain in my left wrist for a week and it was getting worse. He told me I had inflamed tendons in my wrist and asked me to give it a rest for a week, while wearing a brace. A week later I can go back to my upper body workouts but I have to go back to really light weights; I will start with one kilogram weights when I was working with between 5 up to 17.5 kg (depending on the workout)! It’s a huge shift and feels like a loss to me.  I went back on Tuesday and only walked on the treadmill. I went in Wednesday and did lower body, but it was hard not being able to lift weights with my hands. I pushed on and finished my workout. I will keep going and do my best. I know inflamed tendons need patience so I heal properly. Yes, it is frustrating. That’s not going to stop me. Its ok to feel frustrated, angry, impatient with my body. As long as I don’t focus on tt and move forward. Don’t let it stop you. We’ve got this.

Next Saturday, inshallah, I’ll be doing the Riyadh Marathon 10k with two of my gym friends. This will be my third 10k! I’m proud of where I am. I know that despite everything I’ve gotten so far. I’m not going to let these obstacles stop me. I will keep going. It docent have to be easy. I will keep going.